At the beginning of January, with all good intentions, I started a series that was to appear on this blog every Thursday… Toward Him 2012. The series started strong… God was working in my heart and allowing me to share. Then like most New Year’s Resolutions, it fizzled out after a few weeks. Failure.
Just this week, I’ve forgotten to make phone calls or send emails, avoided difficult situations, let friends down, focused on myself way too much, yelled at my kids (and my husband), and I have spent way too little time with God. More failure.
So here’s my disclaimer: I’m not perfect. Just a perfectionist whose biggest stronghold is that she gives up when she can’t get it quite right.
But too many times, I’ve used “I’m not perfect” as kind of a cop-out. As a defense mechanism to try to avoid thinking about (and doing something about) my own shortcomings and failures. And yet again perfectly timed, our pastor’s message today reminded me that the reason I stay miserable in my own missing-the-mark world is because I still have not accepted this fact…
I cannot do it in my own strength. Period.
I’m going to disappoint you. I may forget to call you… or I may get my calendar dates mixed up. I may break a promise. I will probably prove to be different than what your first impression was of me. I’m not perfect… in fact, I’m far from it.
But my God is perfect. He is the perfect One. Jesus. The One who came down to earth, wholly God yet wholly man, and died for you and for me. He lived perfect, died perfect, and came back to life perfect… so that we don’t have to live up to that expectation.
2 Corinthians 4:7 says: “But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us.”
See I truly don’t want you to think I can get it right on my own. The power belongs to God alone. And when you look at me, I hope you see through the flesh… and see an example of imperfection that is being perfected by One. Jesus.
I guess each of us should own this as our disclaimer. We’re not perfect. But He is.