Tune-In Tuesday: Fall Apart

Welcome to Tune-In Tuesday! If this is your first time visiting on a Tuesday, I hope you will find this as a place to worship together. Each week, I share about a song that God is using in my life. One that is speaking to me in whatever season I may be going through. The invitation is for you to jump in and do it, too! Here are the steps:

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5. And the main thing… worship! 🙂 

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My song for today is Fall Apart by Josh Wilson. LOVE this song. Press play below to listen and then read on for lyrics and some thoughts.

Whyin the world did I think I could
Only get to know you when my life was good
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise

Now it all seems upside down

‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart

Blessed are the ones who understand
We’ve got nothing to bring but empty hands
Nothing to hide and nothing to prove
Our heartbreak brings us back to You

And it all seems upside down

‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then   

How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart

I don’t know how long this will last
I’m praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing that
Has ever happened to me

My whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when
You will find me when I fall apart

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Overthe last several months, I have gone through a pretty significant spiritualbattle. Significant life changes. Depression. Anger. Bitterness. Frustration.Hurt. Feelings of rejection in every area of my life. Heartbreaking feelings ofbeing nudged out of some areas very dear to my heart that I was once involvedin heavily. Selfishness.

Itcould have been a simple fix, if I had just let go and trusted. But myheartbreak didn’t bring me back to Him. Instead of drawing closer to Jesus andto those who love me, I withdrew. Went into hiding for a while. So He held medown a little longer.

Mostof you probably had no idea. Most of you saw my Sunday face.

Thankfully,I can tell you that I’m starting to come out of it. I’m actually seeing thereasoning behind it all. Sometimes God has to strip us of all of the thingsthat cause pride and ego in our lives. Often, that is the only way to get ourcomplete attention.

Andsometimes it takes breaking our hearts. But after the breaking, He is alsothere… just waiting for us to hand over the pieces to Him.

Thissong speaks to me so much. We can’t just praise Him in the good times. We haveto praise Him and cling to Him in the hard times, too. And maybe, just maybe, we will find the breaking to be the “best thing that’s ever happened to us.”

I’mso grateful that He will find me when I fall apart.

If you haven’t read about my beach worship moment with my son, I hope you will read it here: A Beach Baby’s Worship. Moments like this have helped my healing.